and so okay so that’s that next stage where we can have some fear some panic we can find ourselves shopping for pain searching for safety we get in a disorientation but what about what about what about now this next grouping it’s the loneliness the isolation maybe it’s depression 2.0 yeah and maybe if we had anger turned outward the first time instead of anger turned inward or anger turned inward and now we’re revisiting it and also this word shame what could i have done to prevent this and boy that’s a big one well i say as
you know shame s-h-a-m-e is self-hatred at my expense there’s a little self-hatred and it cost me a lot so in the shame is maybe i was one percent to blame when you’re grounded and when you’re connected to truth into community and god you know no that’s not i don’t want to own the other person’s stuff but i might doubt it in a moment of weakness and i think of nehemiah and we may use this again but when sand ballot and tobiah are there they came to cause confusion among god’s people who are just trying to rebuild their lives they
said they came to attack them try to kill them but to cause confusion i can do that to myself and be my own internal like sand ballad and tobiah from nehemiah cause confusion when you know lisa we’re talking i’m grounded i know that’s not true but some moment disconnected from community maybe disconnected with god i’m thinking i don’t know maybe there’s a chance i was somewhat at fault right disoriented thinking even right there and i think it’s healthy to examine in certain situations is there a part of this i need to own i think that’s
