How Can I Trust God When I Don’t Understand What He Allows?
when talking about broken trust I think one of the hardest things to process is what do I do when it feels like the person who hurt me just got away with it and even more so how do I continue to trust God when it feels like he allowed the person who hurt me to get away with it I want to go there today because I think this is really important okay Joel we’re going to turn to you first today I remember this moment where I was sitting on the beach and I was processing the long road of hurt and heartbreak that I had gone through and I
was I was just having a moment maybe even a little bit of a pity party but um just a real moment of asking God some really hard questions and it was all around the fact that I thought it was incredible unfair that the person who hurt me the one who left the marriage that I very much wanted to stay together um it just seemed like he was out there living his best life and it was being allowed for him to just continue to on the outside at least look like everything was so yippy skippy fun and I was left at home picking up the pieces
of a broken family I was carrying a really heavy heart not just heaviness for me but also looking at the landscape of my family and because I had a front row to the hurt that my kids had experienced I was seeing the ramifications of of his choices and it was being played out in all of our lives and it was so excruciatingly painful for me and I just remember sitting there and I was watching the tide come in and you know the the waves come in and EB and flow and go out and the because of the tide like the the water was getting closer and closer and
closer and I knew if I don’t get up and I if I don’t move my chair and my bag then everything that I have is going to get wet and if I continue to not move it it’s going to get washed out to see and I remember having this moment where I legitimately said fine wash it all out to sea because I was just at that level of hopelessness and I was overwhelmed with just the feeling of unfairness and that feeling of unfairness was just giving me hit after hit after hit opportunity after opportunity after opportunity for feeling incredibly
