God didn’t come in my life to secure my convenience that he comes into our lives and often his will is disruptive and when it is disruptive sometimes it feels destructive and you wonder in your own mind God are you killing me when in fact God is preparing you for something bigger than yourself and greater than yourself and stronger than yourself and it may be years before your questions are answered and you begin to understand why you had to go through what you had to go through to get to where you had to get and in the meantime
that’s where Faith operates it is a misnomer to think that if you walk with God and serve God and do his will and work then you won’t have any trouble the reality is they that live Godly should suffer persecution and you don’t get to pick when or how or what the suffering is but it still happens I’m building my church my church is exploding this some 20 years ago everything is amazing I’m reaching around the world for Jesus souls are being saved and then the bottom dropped out it started dropping when my mother-in-law
died and it kept dropping when my mother developed Alzheimer and she died and there I was preaching and ministering and helping and even healing the gifts of healing operating in my life couldn’t help my own mother and she died and just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore my 13-year-old daughter walks in the room and tells my wife and I that she’s pregnant my wife collaps in the floor and all the air goes out the room and suddenly I begin to understand that there are times that crush the human soul that try your emotions
that are not judgment or penalty or God being angry or God hating you but God developing you that you don’t get everything just because you go to a class or hear a sermon you have to live these sermons out in your life both the hearer and the speaker what gives you the Integrity of the message is the things you suffer behind the scenes to have the conviction to be able to declare them to know that God has been PR proven in you I found myself asking questions that I never asked myself where is God why why aren’t you moving like you
